This road leads to Kona

The last two weeks were weird, actually they weren't I was acting exactly as I did in the last year and I must recognize I was failing bitterly with.. MYSELF... You know, the meaning of life is being happy - and happines is so a such important thing that even the american constitution secures every human being the right to pursuit happines (could you even think this? I mean, a constitution is about politics and... gosh I have no words to describe how "emotional" i get thinking about it).
Back on earth, as I always do (thanks God) last 2 weeks I was seeking for an answer... my mistake? I had no question at all... When I was 18, I read a book from Leo Buscaglia and there was a chapter that said "when you don't live your life completely, it comes a day when it explodes on you"... weird? not at all.. it's just this: life has it's way of teaching people and somehow when you don't live it how you should (or how you could, or how you might) you build a hole in your soul and someday you will dig into it... complex? just read the book!
Yesterday was a good day, and I was talking to friend - whom I love from the deep of my heart - about my sportive frustration and he just came with a simple concept I'm entirely familiarizaded as a marketing manager "goal setting".... but not only this: SMART goals.. (for those who are not aware SMART stands as Specific, measurable, atainable, realist and tangible...).. just this... so I very introspective today, thinking about my goals... but more than this: selecting the right goals and the right path... (I must remember: KISS - keep it simple stupid).

Have you wrote your own goals lately?

Next post I will set my - not only the "main goal" which inspired this blog, but short terms goals...

do it yourself too!

oh.. before I go: another must read:
Lance Armstrong on the cover of July issue of Outside Maganize

Gosh, today in a terrible bad mood. I'm so angry with small things that I wish I could spent some time living on the top of the everest, or sleeping inside an inglu in the middle of Alaska... Nobody deserves to be with me today - even myself!
I'll run in the evening, maybe it will "heal the pain"...

Today I'm feeling sick and I cannot explain. After the good workout on tuesday the rest of the week turned to be a disaster. On wednesday I was scheduled for a quality workout but I was suffering with pain and diarrea - in order not to worsen it, my coach just sent me to rest. I went to the doctor and have a buch of laboratory tests to do.. awful! On thursday I left work just too late and was just too tired so I couldn't even stand the idea of trainning. I was done. On Friday I felt the same - and my stomach didn't let me forget it's existance! On saturday I swam - actually I struggled against the water. After it I had some weight lifts and a bike ride. On sunday I went running but for the first time I couldn't stand the all trainning so I hed to gave up - that made me feel very bad! After it I had a barbecue but I couldn't eat... In the evenning I went to the church I sztarted to feel good again, but it didn't last. Later on I was again sad, sick and tired - what's the matter with me??????? I managed to watch some tv but it wasn't intersting so I went reading, but I couldn't concentrate at all.... so I tried to get some sleep and.. ouch! I spent the night "rolling" in bed... and today I'm struggling with some sort of "sorrow" that I can't explain. This road to Kona has been tough!
But me mood will improve along the day - yes it will, i just don't wanna surrender to sadness. I'm worryied, about work about one thing i shouldn't have done.

Well, but it's a new week, a new day and I must focus on light and happiness... pls God just give me strenght and guidance!

Well.. what can I say: finally! yesterday after a long period of hard work and absence of trainning I was back on track for an ez 1 hour run... and that was what it was: easy. But with a good and steady pace - 1 reached 23 minutes for a 5k lap (which is quite good for me). But the best new was my heart rates: it ranged from 119 to 150 (in the hardest part of the run) and had a pick of 164 in a long "climb". But most of all it ranged from 128 to 132, at the end the medium was 135 and that made me very glad.
What happened? I can't tell, but my bet is: the combination of good weather (cold but not too much), resting, concentration and good mood. That made me believe I made the right choice not running on monday (I was just too angry and decided to go home and get some sleep).
Today I have tempo run, let's see how it goes. On thursday I'm schedule for a small surgery and probably I will need a rest of about 3 days - wooooooo!

a last comment: I'm starting a count down for "le tour the France"!

Friday I took an yoga class... I was planning it for a long time, but never did - actually I had a few yoga classes in 2003 and must confess it was very good. Wednesday I had a hard running trainnig and I bonked... feeling a bit sad I went home for resting and not for the gym how I use to. On Thursday I went to the dentist and afetr it met a friend at home - I lent him my tribike. It took a while and I missed the swim class... and if I have already missed the swimming I just decided not to go to the gym again - I was mentally exhausted. I went to the church and sleeping was all I could do after it. On Friday Yoga... I was supposed to swim but it didn't worked.. on saturday I had to swim and run but once again I couldn't (this time because I had to stay with my son - and this is more important than sports) on sunday I was scheduled with my mother for a running but I was too busy taking cara of things at home... Well, today is another day... I'm still feeling a bit of pain - result of all the stretching at yoga - but I'm scheduled for a run (I think it will be nice, speacially because I'm a bit sad - feeling the "heart ache" nobody deserves to hear from again.

this was a tough time... I was feeling fine, better than I was for a long time, but suddenly things seemed to fall apart: I had lotsa family troubles and almost believed that I wouldn't be able to cope with stress... Despite of the pressure of circunstances my trainning went on... Friday I met a friend at gym who asked me if I would like to try IM Brasil on the following year. Sounds a good idea, but I'm still not sure for now... it's something to think about and once I'm on a regular trainning I guess I will have enough time to think and plan it - and maybe it was just a matter of excitment once the race was scheduled for the next weekend and you know, triathletes are just like this: fuelled by challenge - but not them all has the necessary discipline to undertake it.